A couple disappointing things this month were that we were told that our wait will likely be 18-24 months from the time we are MATCHED with our little guys. Additionally, we were told that we should not expect to be matched until late summer at the earliest. The waiting is daunting, but the thing that stings even more is that we certainly have time to be raising the baby boy we lost year. After our miscarriage, especially since it was our second miscarriage, we felt peace to follow through with the adoption that God had whispered to us in June 2012. But now that our boys will likely not join our family until 2016, it hurts that our baby had plenty of time to be born, settle into our family and still have a lot of time until our family was complete through adoption. Losing babies hurts. Luckily, I love God and trust His plan and I can wait for kiddos to come home with a contented heart.
Another update since the last post is that I will be traveling back to Haiti with a few very special women to serve the wonderful people of Leveque. I am excited to get back to this precious country, and slightly more anxious to hurry and get there since there was yet another earthquake in Port au Prince and we have children there now. Of course I'll feel the tension of being so close to our boys and yet unable to meet them or bring them home, but our commitment to Haiti goes beyond our adoption so I am happy to simply serve.
I attached a picture of Kadan's boxes of treasures for the 'Haiti Kids'. There are four boxes total - all full of his (and Jaxan's :) favorite toys. Since I'll be in Haiti in June, Kadan is so excited for me to take his gifts to the children. The faith of a child is so beautiful! I do not know exactly how to make this happen, but the Spirit is inside this little boy and its important that he sees my support of his obedience. Thanks God for Haiti, thanks for what you continue to teach me through this country.
